How E-stim Helps Me

I know MD promised to give me an estim session in bondage Saturday morning. However, I wonder if she remembered that this weekend was American thanksgiving? I will go ahead and get tied up for 10 am, but if she does not show by 10:30, I will assume she is romancing some other turkey. I will use my timer and make use of the new synthesiser app and listen to one, or maybe two chaturbate performers as their moans and yelps send pulses to my cock. Two hours of that at a reasonably loud setting should be a challenge for me.  Mind you, I am still really hoping for a driven bondage session.  Keep your fingers crossed. P.S.  the odd comment would be nice.

I did not make it. But I have a good reason. I came yesterday.  I was supposed to wait until Saturday for my big bondage and estim session. Unfortunately, Tuesday night I came across a new toy listed in the Milovana forum.  A synthesiser specifically designed to process metronome sounds into nice e-stim pulses.  It was bloody complicated to get to work.  It is called E-Stim Control App, or the ESC App.  I spent about 6 hours playing with it on Wednesday.  I  started with metronome based flash teases, but I quickly escalated to listening to cam girls.  As people tip, the women vocalize and this results in estim pulses.  I can imagine trying this with self-bondage and playing and watching one or even two rooms at a time.  I have not tried it with a cock-hero video yet, but I imagine it would work fine.  I am still looking forward to this Saturday.

One week of no cumming. Why is that so hard to achieve.  Of course, now that I have committed to that, I want to cum every night.  Last night, I even had direct control over someone else's lovense!  Yet, I managed to avoid the temptation.  I am building up my reserve for a decent flow when I do my bondage session this Saturday morning.  If the past is any indication, I will be left tied until I am forced to cum twice. I will be adding a new person as a moderator soon and I think we might be exploring short term chastity cage key holding.  Would be interesting to get me all worked up in my cage and then she can decide whether I deserve to be release that night, or if I need to stay in the cage until morning.

First, let me say what a great time I had this weekend. MD was kind enough to drive me twice, Friday night and Sunday morning.  Both times were spectacular.  Unfortunately, Friday night and Sunday morning I was not able to do any bondage.  MD's session would be that much more exciting.  I did try to do a bit of selfbondage on Saturday morning; but it was less then spectacular.  I just can't manage a good audio session for selfbondage.  The good news is that MD will try and drive me next Saturday morning.  My house will be empty so I plan on going all out for this session.  Feet will be tied, I will use the anal electrode, and set up the second camera.  I think I will cut open my hose to expose the plug and train the camera on it.  MD might like seeing how her electrical signals make my ass clench.  Of course, if I submit myself in bondage to MD, she will likely make me cum twice before releasing me.  I guess I better avoid any cumming from now until next Saturday.  I am s

Last night was one of those nights I was tempted to buy tokens and play with some of my favorite cam workers. I used to spend a couple of hundred dollars a month.  I knew I had a problem.  Fortunately for me, my account was banned, though I was not sure why.  This gave me an opportunity to start again, but not have my credit card details entered in the system.  Once I did so, it was too easy to grab more tokens with a few clicks.  So now, I always stop short of entering my card details.  I do like to support a few workers, so I look to wish lists. Another addition was my fantasy of having a Dom be a keyholder for either a cock cage or a shackle around my balls.  Its all very exciting until I need to sit down and my balls are crushed inside my pants.  I think I could manage a 24 hour period.  I would especially enjoy being locked up 24 hours before an estim session.  I would need a keyholder willing to witness me putting the cage or shackle on and placing the release keys in a lock

Not a great day either. I did not have a driver to play with yesterday morning, so I tried my best with a bit of selfbondage and a webtease. I wonder if I am getting a bit bored just playing by myself.  There has been a lot of talk on the e-stim forums about how VR will be the next big thing to accompany estim modules.  It would be great to have a synchronized video with direct control of the 2B.  For now, everyone is waiting to see if the next 2B firmware release allows for better stereo stim of what it typically called a "pain file".  Very short audio clips with steep ramps do not get processed by the 2B.  This is probably by design.  This really limits the range of experience you can get from a flash program.  I will likely be back on Saturday morning.  I am hoping to see S on cam.  She is looking to make a bit of pocket money from Chaturbate, but the poor thing didn't have a lovense toy, so I decided to sponsor her by getting her one from her wish list.

I can't stop thinking about having my ankles tied down.  If I do a bit of selfbondage, I will secure my wrists to the headboard, but there is an extra thrill with also having my ankles tied.  I usually reserve this to when I try to get my moderator to drive me while tied.  Last couple of times there have been connection issues, but after awhile of not having a chance to be tied, I get desperate enough to want to take the risk.  I always have an emergency escape method.  I will likely take a chance tomorrow morning and secure my ankles and get my wrist restraints ready.  I love tugging at my legs and feeling them held securely in place.  Trapped until my driver releases me.   

The Selfbondage volume control program is almost ready. The tease portion of the program works, but the cum part just does not do it. The rest periods are too long.  I need to rethink the patterns.  Shorter rest periods and longer periods where the volume is high.  The trick is to try and have a predictable build up period and a reliable section that will cause me to cum.  I am trying to avoid having too long of a post-orgasm torture session. I hope to have a new pattern completed for Wednesday.  For the next several weeks, I will be on camera on Wednesday mornings.  I would rather have a trusted driver control my unit while bound, but barring that, I will resort to using audio files and a program. I tested displaying the volume level through split cam and it worked well.  I also have a second camera I can use.  If I have a driver, I might create a jig to train the camera on the 2B display. This way the audience can see the setting and volumes. Speaking of drivers, another es

My teasing portion of the program is done.  For a specified amount of time of the teasing session, the program will randomly initiate either a 5 second high volume shock or a 15 second wavey pattern where the volume rapidly goes from low to high and back again. I still need to add a three position toggle button to pick a low, medium, or high frequency of these higher volume settings. I still have the cum session to program.  I am thinking of programing progressively longer high volume settings spaced out between progressively shorter periods of silence.  I can start with 10 seconds of sound and 50 seconds of silence, and work my way to a full minute of high volume.  I will finish the program tonight. 

I do a tiny bit every night before bed. It distracts me from estimming. Basically, I am programing a volume control utility that will have a low volume tease section and a high volume cum section.  I still need to have some sort of audio playing from another source.  It could be an audio track or a flash program. The tease section will have random 5 second spikes in volume as well as random periods of wave patterns.  These are designed to keep me aroused and occasionally inch me closer to an orgasm.  I am still debating what to do with the cum section.  I might alternate between high and zero volume.  After the tease session is over, I get a one minute countdown with zero volume.  Then I start with a 5 second high volume, then back to zero for 55 seconds.  Then 10 seconds high, and 50 seconds at low.  This progresses until I have a full 60 seconds at high.  My goal is to try and not cum until the last minute.  The entire final session lasts 13 minutes.  In each section, the s

For the next three months or so, I will be caming on Wednesday mornings. I do hope it will be a convenient time for MD.  As a back up plan, I am writing another volume control program.  My current one gradually increases the volume over a specified period of time.  Instead, I think I can do better than that. I will have a tease session, and a cum session. During the tease session, the volume will be low enough to tolerate, with randomly introduced high volumes that last 10 seconds.  The length of the total tease session as well as the frequency of the high volume periods can be chosen as the outset of the session. After a tease session, we go straight to a high volume setting for a set period of time.  I can play this program while playing something like Milovana endless tower, or perhaps a single wave file.  I know that Commander for the 2B allows for one to record a session and play it back.  I will look closer at this.  It would be nice if the output file is digital an

Selfbondage with a timer can be risky. Its all fun and exciting as you start, but when you start to feel that orgasm build and you think you only have 10 to 15 seconds left before you explode, it can be a little scary.  With my wrists handcuffed to the headboard; held in place with a timer lock, I ran version 2 of Milovana's Estim Experiment.  I was using two cameras, one for my cock and one for my wrists to show that I was indeed helpless.  Fortunately, Estim Experiment has several sessions for which the 2B cannot process the audio signal, and therefore, I feel nothing.  During these sessions, my cock goes flaccid.  However, there was one moment in my hour long session where I was sure I was going to cum.  A second before the point of no return, the session ended. The idea of post-orgasm stimulation as torture is more appealing than the reality.  I suspect I will try it again, despite the risk of actually cumming.  I hope I can participate in another self-bondage session w

And you are not my daddy. I just do not understand some people.  Most people I encounter on chaturbate are polite and sane.  Then there are the few that think they own you.  I have one person I play with.  Until she decides she wants to move on, I will continue to appreciate the attention she gives me.  I will consider helping others learn how to control the 2B, but the vast majority to drivers out there just want to use electron. If I am not being driven by my current driver, I will usually explore flash programs.  I might also play with my urethral tube.  Another option is to do some selfbondage, but I need to find the right program to edge me and then give me orgasm very close to my release time.  I was trying to use estim experiment v2 last night.  I was hoping it ran for a set amount of time, and then switch to final orgasm inducing session. It went for 1.5 hours and still did not end.  I was excited the last time I tried the Estim Experiment, and it seemed to end on a s

Do I get the second camera? Mike, another estimmer, showed me how to display two images at once using the splitcam software and a second camera. This might be useful.  I can display the 2B settings for people to see while I am being driven.  I might also use it for a more creative full view display during a bondage session.  However, I am a bit sensitive about showing my body and the extra few pounds I carry.  I am curious if by driver would find it enjoyable to see my whole body struggle and quiver when she brings me to orgasm. I would need a mask, and still need be able to open the lock box.  Perhaps I could arrange the camera to capture all but my head.  I do think I will pick up the extra camera on my way home tonight.