How E-stim Helps Me

They are out there. Lots of them.  Yesterday, I had a cam session and some guy from Italy wants to drive.  He's driven another model before, and he agrees to a tutorial session.  As we start off, he immediately cranks the volume up. That should have been a sign.  He was less interested in controlling my arousal and orgasm, and entirely interested in see me suffer.  I stuck with it just long enough to have a quick orgasm, but reflecting on the experience, I should have shut him down early.  Of course, he will never get a second opportunity.  I fully anticipate he will be back with promises to be nicer, but sadists are at heart disingenuous and self-interested. Later,

you just want to be tied up. I think more and more about soliciting the services of professional, just to see what it would be like to by tied well and be at the disposal of another.  I think I would like to experience sounding, blindfolded.  Maybe even with noise canceling headphones.  Mix in some clothespegs and a bit of estim to keep me guessing as to what comes next.  Bushing the head of my penis with a fine soft paint brush to tip me over the edge into a ruined orgasm.  Sigh. 

I encountered a nice yet kinky young lady last night.  She is supposedly from Cairo.  She likes to maintain a small stable of boy toys that remain caged for her delight. She was curious about estim, so I volunteered to offer a tutorial session.   Starting to teach anyone how to control an estim unit is difficult.  People get turned off quickly by the level of apparent complexity, but for those that stick with it, the unit can offer the ability to creatively control another person's dick. Her first session went well, but she immediately went to that place I really hate; she slipped into the master-slave routine, making commands, and causing pain.  Now, there was a time when I thought that would be really sexy, but those days are gone.  I disconnected the unit and had a quick heart-to-heart about what this session was about.  We will likely have one more session, but if she insists on making me one of her toys and expects me to submit to pain and commands, then we will not be con

But nothing seems right. Maybe its time to move on.  Both my regular drivers seem to have moved on, perhaps I should too.  I will continue to go on cam for a few weeks and see what happens.  I tried one of the Cock Hero audio files.  A collection of them can be found on Milovana forum.  The problem, again, is that as the beats become more frequent, the 2B applies too much of a ramp to let them have any impact.  The 2B creators have been promising a new software update for awhile now to give users the option of reducing the ramp.  Take care.

Don't look for me. I will be offline for about 2 weeks.